Has anyone felt a phase in life when your are in complete dilemma as to what you want to be in life????
Well I am going exactly throught it now...
I am so confused that I have no clue as to what I need in my life at this stage in life....
Is it to persue my life amibition of being surrounded by things I love the most and stay home or make some sort of a career carved out of things I like to do for the society ???
The problem lies in the fact that I am so influenced by the people around me. I really do envy my husband for his talent for being so unaffected by the 'society's expectation' out of him.I wish I could be so sure of myself some day....
Other day in my routine conversation with my mom this had come up. I was telling her how much I wish to be her.So sure of herself with the 'Superiority complex' that can rival the Miss Universe's and the attitude which can either be friendly or killing according to the situation.Whereas on the other side I am such a mouse to confront a situation who takes all bullshit thrown at face with a smile and never ever got around in life to pay back a revenge. I was surprised to see that my mom saw me in different light. She thinks I am more mature in handling situations (I dont think so ..) and very smart.On the other hand, my dad apparently thinks I am good actress who tries to enact the protrait of charming and genuine female (Sometimes dads see too much. Well I am scared to ask my husband more about it actually.I am sure he will have wonderfull things to add to that....LoL
By penning down all this in my blog I am not actually expecting all my worries answered but I thought it will be great to see it wriiten down to bring some memories in life in the future....
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